I was preparing to write a blog post about being a “real man” this past weekend. I went up the mountain and chopped some wood. Woo hoo.
But as I sat down to write, I couldn’t write it. My mind kept calling “BS.” It wouldn’t let me get away with it. So I’m going to allow you a peek behind the curtain, kick myself for being so arrogant in 2012, and introduce you to my theme for 2013:
Let’s start out by explaining my “Real Man” activity. Yes, I was chopping some wood for our fireplace, a chore that needed to get done – but what I was really doing was escaping.
Escaping a Sunday morning in a house full of frustration and shouting.
I replaced a man’s duty with a false manly chore. I thought I would get dirty, do some physical activity, and feel like a “real man” by chopping some wood. But in essence I left my home, my responsibility, and my family when they needed me.
I should have stuck around. Improved the situation. Helped. Loved.
So I have that off my chest. Starting 2013 with some honesty. My life isn’t perfect. I’m doing my best.
I’ve written before about my quest for real, raw honesty but now I’m devoting a whole year to it. Let’s see if I have any friends left by 2014.
But really, I’ve got to be honest with those around me. I’ve got a voice and I’m going to use it. And I’m going to be more honest on this blog because sometimes I write from the point of view of someone who’s got it all together. And the truth is, I don’t. Usually, if I’m writing something, it’s because I just learned it or it’s an ideal that I’m striving for.
Not because I’m some expert on it. Because I’m not.
I’m just a guy who wants to use his passions to serve others.